I Did It!

I applied for a job at Lifesteps, a company that works with mentally handicapped adults, last night. The position that I applied is to work at a day center that I can walk to since it is just a few blocks away. The job would be full time and I would get benifits! I guess it would be a good thing if I got the job but I have so many questions...like do I really want to leave Lizzy with people who aren't me, am I doing God's job by applying for this job, can I really be this consistant, will I get the job? I know that it is good for Lizzy to be around kids, but it would be nice if it were in smaller doses then this. I don't necessarily want to work full time but I do really want the benefits esp dental since my teeth really have been hurting lately. I also feel like applying for this job is showing my lack of trust in God and Shawn. Is it saying to both of them that they aren't providing enough for me? It isn't really that, but I know what we have at the end of the month and even if he gets the crew leader position and the raise that comes with it we have so many things to save for. I want to be able to help and lift his load a bit. So I applied for a job last night and I kind of hope I get it. Please keep this in your prayers.